Guess who still hasn't broken things off with their pseudo-girlfriend yet. I don't know why I haven't yet. Its laziness or fear, maybe I even have feelings for her though. Like I'd be sad if she died but I don't want to date her. She just feels like a roadblock that I either wait at until I die or get past somehow. Tomorrow I'll break up with her, totally.
My roommate is having a kid, that's something. Not with the coke girl but with this girl that he's been on again and off again with for maybe two years now. She actually came over and banged on our doors when her and the coke girl found out that he was seeing both of them. She was supposed to get an abortion but his mom talked her out of it. That's insane to me. She had him when she was around the same age so I can see where she's coming from but that kid will ruin the girls life and probably fuck up his. He said that he would have no part in that kid's life and I can't really blame him. He's nineteen, she's twenty one at least. Almost positive that she's either drinking or smoking too so that baby is coming out of the womb FUCKED up. I've been an uncle since I was born so I hope I'll be a bad ass uncle to it. 100% smacking their head around if they're a boy.
My friends think they have a right to come over whenever they please. They're loud, put their feet up everywhere, leave a mess, and won't leave when I tell them to.
I like doing coke. I'm not an actual addict like my roommate but I've only turned it down once. I have problems with cumming, during sex and when I masturbate. Like so bad that the girl I fucked started an argument with me. Me telling stories would be so much easier if I used names. I don't because if someone I knew found this I'd probably kill them and then myself, or at the very least myself. Anyways, coke makes me cum buckets. The time before last I went soft halfway and still kept jacking off. Hardened up after 10 or so minutes and came the most I've ever seen after that. I've probably came more using my knockoff fleshlight but I ran out of lube for it. I don't think I even cleaned it the last time I used it. Just came in it and threw it in a cardboard box in the corner of my closet. Similar to how I treated her.
Once I get a haircut and some new clothes I'll try and make myself post to Instagram, maybe even make a Tinder. I made a sockpuppet account and there's some actually cute people on it. If I got my shit together I could be in their leagues and maybe actually fuck someone I like. Also seeing a lot of sorority girls caked with fake tan. The way they do it looks so unnatural and just highlights any imperfections. They do it to look younger but it just makes them look wrinkly.
I also had eleven hundred dollars stolen from me too. My card either got skimmed or some data leak happened. I have all the cash back though. When I told my mom about it she freaked out and tried to blame it on me. She asked if I left my card around people or lost it. She even tried to say the reason why was because I left my wallet in the car. You can't see any of the numbers when it's in my wallet so its bullshit. She always blames everything that goes bad on me. Its exhausting. One time the toilet in her bathroom got fucked up and she said that I must of been messing with it. After I told her that I didn't she then tried to say that I was fucking with my bathroom and that somehow fucked up hers. She apologized for blaming me though and we hugged it out. She even got me street tacos. They weren't as good as I remember them being. They used pork instead of steak, it was also a little dry.
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