God I really need to post more here. Got a haircut, broke up with what may be the lamest situation-ship in human history, and got exposed as some kind of gay. All in one day. It all happened on the 18th I think, I have drafts from when I tried to write but just gave up. So I got a haircut, its growing on me (HAHAHA). My roommate, Coke-Girl, and I went to his car to smoke. I don't even remember what for but he wanted my phone for something and Grindr was the first thing he saw when he started swiping. He wasn't as much as an asshole as I thought he'd be about it. I mean he still yelped like a dog who just got ran over and called me gay but it was a much more subdued reaction than I thought he'd have. Coke-Girl didn't even react, I wonder if she zones out completely whenever she uses her phone. I've looked over her shoulder a couple of times when she was using her phone. It's surprisingly easy to do when she is a full foot shorter then me. All she does is take snaps of herself and send them one by one to anyone. Social media is this weird community to me.
The entire time that was going on I broke things off with my Pseudo-Girlfriend. I said I don't want to be in a romantic relationship with her and it just ended. Its suits the entire relationship. just a boring, worthless exchange of words and that was it. A six year long chapter of my life just done. We didn't have a huge fight, we didn't fuck for one last time, it was just done. After she started being passive aggressive, I took it as a sign I did the right thing.
So now I miss my other ex. I don't remember a lot of good that came from it except the sex. I don't think she was smart. I remember texting her a bunch one night, we talked about Japanese street racing and our favorite animals. The only stupid thing I remember her saying to my face was that she thought people who were pansexual actually fucked pots. She came with baggage which was probably how I was ever attractive to her. She actually loved doing crosswords with me. Coke-Girl kept dropping hints to me that she was seeing someone new so I looked at her Instagram and she is. Just the average "newly-an-adult" age guy. She seems happy and that makes me happy, even though she tried to trash my apartment. In a week or so I'll remember the time she made me run down the road to calm her down or the time she got pissed at me because I gave her her phone "rudely". Thinking about it some more they actually might have been the same event. I liked waking up beside her and doing crosswords with her, I also liked the sex, I just don't know if I liked her.
I went to a concert. One of my friends from highschool is the bassist so it was cool seeing him again, and he was doing something cool too. I'm trying to become more "normal" recently. This just means trying to get out of the house more. I also applied to a car wash near me. Fourteen dollars an hour if I get this job, I'll call them tomorrow since I haven't heard back from them yet. After the concert he followed me on Instagram and I felt like I did something good.
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