Long time no type. I've wanted to make a blog post but just haven't gotten around to it. For a quick rundown: It snowed and I got really high and smeared chocolate all over my shirt, our house got "broken into", I started to go for walks, TikTok got banned for a couple hours, and I'm done with my ex emotionally.
To start, it snowed in the south for the first time in years. I love the snow so much. The way it coats everything, the way it crunches underneath my feet. It's something small but it's nice to see things in a different way. I texted some of my friends if they wanted to hang out and we did. I hit their carts and we went to some gas station. I don't get out much so this store was damn near futuristic. It had a soda fountain and everything. We then went to this military base and smoked weed. This guy I used to be friends with out of desperation and my friend's little brother was there. One of my friends, the short redneck, went to his truck to smoke crack, or meth. I'm not sure but he was smoking it out of a bowl and using a torch to heat it. I went back home and started scraping this chunk of chocolate with my teeth. It was so good but I got it all over my shirt.
Next was when our apartment got broken into. My roommate joined a frat and he was checking people's IDs to make sure they were old enough to enter. Those two girls, the short one he used to fuck and the tall one I used to fuck, showed up and he turned them away. Then the tall one went into our apartment. She didn't exactly break in since we don't lock our doors for some reason but she wasn't invited. I heard someone open and close the door but it felt wrong. I don't know how to explain it but it's similar to someone moving stuff around in your room but ever so slightly. Your keyboard is slightly askew or your bed sheets are ruffled in a way you don't remember. I walked to the kitchen to put up a bowl that was in my room and found her pressed as far as she could into a corner. It was weird, she didn't attack me or scream, we just stood there until I said hi. She wanted to trash my roommates stuff which I'd be okay with as long as it didn't affect me. She wanted to pour out a bunch of protein powder and sauces across the house but I talked her down to just trashing his bedroom. She looked hot by the way. She did something new with her hair and was wearing a shirt that showed off her cleavage. Sometimes I think about what could have been if she wasn't so stupid. She thought pan-sexual people actually got off to pans.
The next two things aren't really interesting. I went for a walk in the middle of the night. I walked past this sorority house and I felt like a weirdo. Imagine being a pure, innocent, defenseless girl and this vaping homeless man walked by your driveway, you'd be freaked out. TikTok also got banned, Trump took credit of getting it unbanned even though he wanted it to get banned in the first place.
I'm also done with my ex, I'll still talk to her as a friend but romantically I'm done. I've waited six years for her and not a second more. I loved her more than she loved me and that's fine, but I can't take it anymore. We hung out and she just refused to kiss me. Eventually we did but it just felt weird. I don't know if I broke her because admittedly I was pushy with her but I don't know. Then we went to my bed and we did nothing. Previously she'd let me touch her though her clothes but she wouldn't let me. I asked her what she was okay with and she told me "Don't touch my pussy, don't take off my clothes.". I listened to her and stuck a hand up her shirt and grabbed her tits. She yelled at me to not do that and it just ruined the mood. We've only been talking for a couple months now so I understand why she wouldn't want to do sexual stuff but we've known each other for over half a decade now. She has some self esteem issues and told me she might be aromantic and asexual but I don't understand why she'd switch up on me out of nowhere. I'll either find someone else or I won't. It's sad but that's how life is.
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