Teeth

I focus a lot on my teeth. One of them is tilted back into my mouth and without noticing I'll rub my tongue against it. It has this numb pain that pops up whenever I clench my jaw. I'm also scared of showing my teeth to people. I was made fun of for having yellow teeth when I was a kid so I don't show them a lot. I smile weird because of it. The sides of my mouth move to the side more than it moves up. I've always had trouble with presenting myself. I had a bowl-cut until I was twelve and then a comb-over for a few years after. I looked like a fucking idiot. I still do, just not as much.

There's something intimate about biting to me. I'm able to sink my teeth into something or someone, tracing their skin with my tongue while they can't get away. I want to bite someone in that part of flesh that connects their shoulder to their neck. I remember a specific event that triggered this but I probably saw a girl from the back and got transfixed on it. I'm a little disgusted with myself because of it since I'm getting off to me hurting them but my enjoyment from the thought alone overpowers it. Thinking about it makes my mouth fill up with saliva.